“There is no greater gift you can give or receive than to honor your calling. It’s why you were born. And how you become most alive.” ~Oprah Winfrey
How are you doing so far? I ask, because, throughout this blog, I’m sure many concepts have been super triggering. Recovery is work. It’s gritty. It’s courageous. But by even researching recovery (evidenced by the fact that you’ve landed here) it shows that you want this. You want to be well.
So let’s dig in further.
Thus far we’ve mainly addressed external changes—coming clean with another person, arming yourself with resources, re-feeding your body, detoxing your home, changing your habits and friends, and perhaps creating a whole new metaphorical Rat Park for yourself. Now let’s get clear on a mandatory aspect of long-term recovery—strengthening your soul.
When I look back on my bulimia, not only was my body starved and weak, my soul was, too. While my Rat Park was pretty awesome—I had an exciting life filled with an abundance of friends, family, travel, beautiful things, exciting experiences, pets, growth, and love—my soul was disconnected so I couldn’t truly enjoy any of it. My external Rat Park didn’t nurture me because my internal soul was starving. I normally left a social gathering or an amazing experience feeling empty rather than filled. I was disconnected from my Source. You know the feeling, yes? You are with your favorite people—laughing, giggling, sharing fun activities, reaching certain goals, enjoying life—but since your soul is not full, you are left ravenous, not refreshed.
You might have worked through strategies one through five to perfection, but if you don’t take care of your very essence, you will likely relapse. Spirituality is like food—just as a wonderful meal nourishes the body, spiritually strengthens your soul. Likewise, some representations of spirituality you will love, others you won’t. If a certain church, mosque, ashram, temple, or spiritual gathering place has piqued your interest, heed the call. If you’ve been drawn to African drumming or Native American sweat lodges or Transcendental Meditation, go check them out. Explore.
If you don’t like the spiritual flavor, don’t finish the dish.
Keep searching until you find your soul food. You may also find it helpful to create a spot in your home only for your soul’s refreshment. Include an alter, candles, a mediation pillow, pictures of your spiritual leaders, or whatever else helps ground you and connect you with your Source. Go there often when your soul needs sustenance. Addiction recovery is an intensely spiritual journey, and I encourage you to dig deeply—both out in the world and into your very essence.
Sending much love.
You’ve got this!